My dear, went away

My relationship started on 27th January 2012 and it is ended on 23th February 2012.

HOW?  I don't know exactly! Hendri Pondaga Septahadi decided to separated,

so, i just say yes. i can't make him stay. I want him to tell the reason, but he just say

"Maybe we are not suitable anymore" those words, sounds strange for me.

because, there's nothing happen, we're not fighting, we're fine. yeah maybe because i mad

at him in the afternoon on that day, i went to his school pensi and im alone, my friends are go,

so i ask him to sit beside me, im afraid, im alone, i dont know anyone there, but he didn't want 

im waiting for a couple hours, i sent some messages to my aunt,mycousin,myfriends,and k'andes,

and also i call them with hendri and ferry, but they didnt answer my phone, my tears came out.

i called k'andes and you know just k'andes replied my message and answered my phone, and i asked

him to picked me up, im waiting for him, and here he's come, he dropped me home. And i sent some message to Hendri, yeah we're fighting, and also hendri's friend ferry he promised me won't let me alone there but he

left me, i sent message to him, i hate you, you left me, and he sent some message just say, im sorry im sorry im sorry, he went to wtc to have lunch, he left his phone in the car. i just say okey.

and while im in my house i prepare to go to my english course, i've just sent bbm to hendri but he replied

with short words. so after i go back from richmond(course) i went to my friend's house, siti maidina, and

i tell her about my situation, and suddenly i've got bbm from hendri.

H: "so, how is our relationship?"

M: "what? pardon me?"

H: " i want we to ended this relationship."

M: "why?"

H: "maybe we are not suitable anymore"

M: "tell me the real reason, you don't love me anymore?"

H: "i want to ended this relationship!! maybe."

M: "Okey!! do not need to mad at me like that!"

H: "Okey okey"

M: "thanks for everything, thanks for completing my heart, im sorry

       if i made some mistake."

H: "okey you're welcome. me too."

So tha was my story, siti maidina and me have some conversation and after that i went

back home, suddenly i dropped my tears. and i asked k'andes what should i do, he said

to me if you love him, get him go back, if you're not just let him go, his not a gentleman,

because he's made a decision just because his emotional.

I'm to stupid, because i still love him, because i want go back have a relationship with him, even some of his and my friends said something, but i do, i really love you, all of those moments,

all of those words that came out from your mouth, all of those voice note,

everything, everything just came into my heart and hard to let it go.

You make my days change, different, you are different.


But i try to let you go :")

My 17

So, let's start about my 17th birthday.

Actually, my birthday is on 19th February, so it was a couple day ago.

yeah, i'd like to say thanks to my Jesus because i can live and life(haha) in this world

i'd like to say thanks to my mom, im here and i am a big girl now because of her too and also

my daddy, who's always protect me and help mom to make me such a good girl and big girl.

And my brothers (irvan&chris) and my sister(ingrid) thanks for the greetings and ypur pray :*

My dear boyfriend (Hendri Pondaga Septahadi) for the surprise and the gift :* you, even you

are too shy to made it but i really appreciate it bebeh, hahaa :D you woke up in the morning on

Sunday(he never waking up early on sunday) and you gave it to me in a hot 2.00 :D thanks bebeh

i love you so much.

and also Wira Andesman & Hendri Pondaga Septahadi, those two man the first one who say

Happy Birthday to me :) thanks a lot.

and also my friend, my family. i love you so much guys!!!!

and my classmate all of you! give me the cake too! thanks a lot :*

and thanks for the present my cousin(Sri) and also my room mate,

and Siti Maidina too!

and my Bestfriends (Clarissa,Alan,Ruri,Yoan,Enno,Yosi) who give the surprise too!

i'm sorry guys, all off you got a problem on the way because all of you wanna give me the surprise,

i'd really like to say thanks for all of you, i love you all! thanks for the presents, thanks for the cakes,thanks for the greetings,thanks for the surprises, thanks for the prays that all of you sent to me :')

AMEN!!!!

Although my mom and dad are far away from me, you guys fill my day :* always beside me, thanks, thanks a lot! Jesus, i love all of those people, please im begging to You, don't make me lost them, i do not want to be separated with them, because i really love them, like i love my self, and of course I LOVE YOU TOO JESUS. AMEN!!

Thanks God that i have all of them, really greatful. I LOVE YOU ALL!

AND THANKS JESUS!